Nov 30, 2009

End of November...

Christmas time makes me happy. Coming home to a decorated Christmas tree and a fireplace donned with eleven personalized stockings last night was the best start of the Christmas season. If Christmas break ends up half as good as Thanksgiving break, I will be a very happy girl.

The first weekend of Thanksgiving break included a trip to OKC, catching the end of my bff's concert at Starbucks, quality time with Tim, enjoying lunch with Unbound (+ Will), road tripping to Tulsa with said bff, watching Megan Reese become Megan Stephens, loving on the Conklin family, going to church with my grandparents, accompanying them to the middle of nowhere Oklahoma to see a tabernacle recreation, and seeing my Dad. Much to my delight and surprise, my dad brought a little something with him...




MY WONDERFUL NEPHEW!

The next few days were spent having fun with him and my amazing boyfriend.






On Wednesday, Tim and I headed to Dallas to meet up with is family. It was an amazing drive. Even being stuck in traffic was enjoyable. The weather was perfect, so we rolled down the windows and Tim played guitar. So fun! I really love being with him. We have such a great time together. For example:

We bought a disposable camera and took random pictures throughout the week. I'm excited to get them developed.

After eating lunch with the Giddens crew, I headed to Mesquite to sleep before heading to Waco the next morning. It was wonderful seeing my mom's side of the family. (especially my precious cousins, Hayven and Addison) They're beautiful.




That's Addison. She is two and absolutely precious.

Thursday night I drove to Brownwood to be with Tim's family. Such a fun group of people. They were super welcoming and I felt right at home with them. Plus- there were babies and puppies there. I was a very happy girl. I spent Thursday and Friday night there with the Giddens and then Tim and I headed to Dallas on Saturday morning. We met up with my parents, brother, and nephew. This was Tim's first time to meet my mom and brother. I think it went well. :) Mom and Dad really seem to love him. After an amazing lunch at Le Madeline, we headed back to OKC.

Tim had listened to the audio book for "The Road" and was super excited about the movie, so we decided to see it Saturday night once we got back to OKC. It was a good movie, but very depressing. I would recommend it, but prepare yourself. You will leave feeling dead inside.

Sunday morning we went to church with my grandparents again, enjoyed a wonderful lunch at Johnny Carino's, and then headed to the emergency clinic. =/ Poor Tim had an awful boil on his side that wasn't getting better, so after some convincing, he agreed to get it checked out. After getting some antibiotics, we went back to my grandparents to nap before I had to go back to Searcy.

That's basically break in a nutshell.

Oh, I guess I should share this minor detail...



He loves me. :) And I love him. As he put it, he "dropped the 'L' word" this past week. I couldn't be happier. He's such a wonderful addition to my life and I'm so excited to see where God takes this relationship.

peace, love, and elephants,
Cara Linn

Nov 9, 2009

Blessed

I wish I had a mind to update this more often. Not because it's in high demand or because people are dying to know about my life, but simply because it's therapeutic.

The past four months have been a whirlwind. I look back on them with mostly smiles and a grateful heart. No doubt, I am completely blessed. God has put amazing new people and some very welcomed familiar ones into my life recently and for that, I am thankful. The timing could not have been more perfect. I'm confident of that.

Why?

Because of the storm that hit two weeks ago.

I had found myself exhausted, apathetic, and unmotivated. For those of you who know me, those are quite the opposite of my normal, high-spirited self. After several days of doing nothing but lying in bed, skipping classes, and having a few panic attacks, I finally decided to go to the doctor. Diagnosis? Anxiety and depression.

Is it ridiculous that I thought myself immune to such a thing? I'm the "normal" one in my family. The unmedicated, completely happy-on-her-own-with-no-need-for-medication one. Truth is, I'm not.

Luckily, Dr. J is fantastic and spent a good amount of time explaining that this whole thing has nothing to do with who I am as a person. I had assumed I was to blame for the situation entirely. However, Dr. J explained to me serotonin levels and how whatever is going on in my brain has nothing to do with me as a competent, normal human being. I am now going through the process of figuring out and adjusting to medication. There is a light at the end of this dark tunnel, I know it.

I have to brag on Tim a bit here. He has been such a trooper through this whole experience. Honestly, I was terrified to tell him about this mess at first. Who needs/wants to have to deal with a "crazy" girlfriend? Much to my amazement, he not only took the news well, but has done everything in his power to make me happy. In fact, there have been a few times where he has gotten up super early just to call me to make sure I am up for class and have taken my meds. I truly am blessed. He is an amazing guy.